Sunday, June 30, 2013

Facing My Insecurities With Fashion

Yes I said it. I always want to be the one who wears what I want, and not care what others think. But for some reason, I get dressed, put baby in the car seat, walking with confidence towards the front. And suddenly I have a billion thoughts running through my head, I start walking slower and slower until I stop, I wait a couple seconds and think. Do I look crazy? is my euphoric style, too euphoric? People are going to stare and I won't know what to do. And even though I know, I know deep down that I love what I am wearing, that what I am wearing represents me, I can't stand my insecurities, I go back in my room with my baby Gracie and change. I put on my regular pants, and a "safe" stylish t-shirt that won't show the weight I've gained through pregnancy because I know that even though I don't feel like myself I still look stylish- so its o.k. And then I walk out my door, feeling disgusted with what I have just done. But I convince myself, that even though I don't feel like myself, I still look cute, so I let it go. But I can't do that anymore. I have to just let myself be, let everything just be. I have to just wear what I want, because I want to. I decided to start in small steps. Wear one thing I love, in public even if others stare. I've decided to just be brave and do it!! Not care if I look fat or not.. Reality is, I am overweight right now, but I am working on that, and just because I can't lose 50 pounds in one day doesn't mean I can't wear something that represents who I am!!! I am losing weight, the healthy way and I will get to my goal, but I can't be afraid to be who I am through my clothes just because I am not my normal weight. It takes time to be brave but I really believe that once I can break that cycle in my head, it will be alright, it will actually be more than alright! I will posting pictures of myself this week with outfits that represent me, outfits that make me feel euphoric again! Do any of you ladies have insecurities with fashion? Any advice for me?

These are my inspirations for the week: Love the 60's and 70's. I love the euphoric colors, the hippie, boho look! Just love!! I'll see what I can come up with :) 






14 comments:

  1. very inspiring post! i love your forward thinking

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    <a href="http://beyondjackie.blogspot.com>BeyondJackie</a>

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  2. I'm the same way! I'm trying to stop wanting to wear things and actually start wearing all the things.

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  3. very nice and honest post, just be yourself and do what you want !!!

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  4. Nice colors! Love that these styles are coming back now =)

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  5. Nice :)
    allwayssmille.blogspot.com

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  6. i definetly have a lot of insecurities when it comes to fashion. i've never been happy with my body and gained extraweight over the last years. i already lost nearly 20kg by eating healthy and clean, but i'm not at my personal goal yet. i hate to always think that people laugh behind my back, or are disgusted...it's quite stupid to define oneself over such things as weight or clothing, but i am like that. so i'm still changing, and that gives me confidence...knowing i'll loose this few last extra pounds and hopefully that damn insecurities^^

    The Fashion Menue

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  7. I love that era! And boo to insecurities.

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  9. Everybody does. But the truth is you see there is not many girls wears trending clothes except the models in pictures. Pretty much magazine editors and fashion bloggers and many more people doesn't. So if you feel like it, wear it :)

    Delilah,
    dancinginmyawkwardarms.blogspot.com

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    1. Lots of people wear trending clothing where I live. It probably depends on where that is.

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  10. Such a good post! I love your blog!!

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    xxx

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  11. Lovely photos, such great style!

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  12. Really nice Inspiration!!!

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